Hello.

Normally when I start blogging, it means that there's something wrong with me.

That day, I played with his phone and look at his whatsapp , as usual, then I saw his conversation with *her is so unusual and sensitive. He told me that was just a joke, it means nothing .Girls are always sensitive, and he asked me not to be so sensitive. I asked him" what if I say the same thing to xxx, will you get mad at me? " he replied" Yes, of course, but *she is different from your friend, I know her since 4 years ago and the way we talk are like this since very long ago." I was upset and angry at that time but I never reply because I don't want to argue with him. I ignored him for almost half an hour during the lecture. I can't pay full attention during the lecture because my mind was filled by hows and whys. 8 months.... 8 months of being together but I still feel insecure. Why am I so silly? After I got home, I text him and told him that he don't love me enough, I'm just a replacement of someone. He replied " If you are a replacement of someone. I would never be with you in the first place, I would never spend time going out with you just to keep you happy, I would never listen to you until now......etc..." His words seems true.Why would he want to waste his time on me this ugly, fat, stupid girl? But anger kills my mind, we continue to quarreled. Thank god, he is a gentleman, he didn't use any deadly or hurtful words during the argument if not I'm gonna break up with him . We finally calmed ourselves down at night. he apologized to me and promised me he will change his way of talking( no flirty words anymore ). I promised him, I will try my best not to argue with him anymore because he was really upset when we start arguing. Duh. I mean, who will be happy when he or she start arguing with their loves one ? LOL . I hope this will be the last time we argue. I get very tired when we argue over the same thing repeat and repeat again. I should just follow the simple rule : Don't care too much, so that you won't get hurt. I want to be heartless and cold-blooded, I don't want to care too much. Can I do it?  =(

I hope those who facing the same problem as me, please cheer up! We're strong girls and I'm sure we can overcome all this ! Jiayou!!